Such an odd
season, stage
to be fully a father,
and fully a son.
Yet in this moment,
not yet a father,
and inadequate as a son.
How is who I am as a husband, so
different from who I am as a father,
the farthest from who I am as a son.
Yet, I am me, each person is fully me
each person fully that role.
I feel as if I am not one, but three
disjointed persons acting dysfunctionally.
I want to be mended whole again.
I want to be a wholly trinity.